Stop flaunting my gayness?! NEVER! I love being gay, it’s part of who I am. Can I say.. STOP FLAUNTING YOUR STRAIGHTNESS? Just so you know, I would never ask that of anyone. I’m proud of who I am. I have come along way and I have never been afraid of being gay. Okay.. that’s a little untrue. There are times when I do get afraid to tell someone my orientation. Like super girly girls or really testosterone filled guys. The girls might bark insults at me and the guys might try harder to get in my pants, (which I HATE) never happening. I can take a ‘your pretty’ compliment from a guy. But I don’t enjoy being called hot by a guy. Makes me feel kind of like a piece of meat. Anyways… back to the topic at hand–STOP FLAUNTING YOUR GAYNESS, a video made by a random Youtuber.
Alright, I’m watching a video on Youtube called ‘Stop Flaunting Your Gayness’. It’s black and white so I’m not too interested. It’s the title that pulled me in only because I’m gay myself. The lady in the video is quite.. well I hate to say it but visually unappealing. Maybe she could have made the vlog in colour.. Anyways, she starts the video off , talking about how she was in the hospital and she doesn’t feel too well. (while expressing her unwell state by sticking her tongue out, unattractively.) She then tries to get on topic but is interrupted by a child? That’s what she says anyways. While being interrupted she makes some pretty.. interesting facial expressions and talks very creepily to ‘said child’. If that was my mom.. I would be kinda embarrassed.. Just saying. After all this she cuts her vlog and the viewer (me!) is returned to her. Where she THEN starts talking about her child going to school and stuff.. DUDE I’M RIVETED, but what’s this got to do with the title?
Finally after about 2 minutes she gets back on topic. I’ve noticed that when she tries to explain herself, she has to try a couple times.. not too good at spitting out the story. Kind of all over the place.. Oh NOW I get it, she’s trying to talk to us about how people keep asking her why she always talks about being gay.She then tells us she is a big ol’ lesbian, (big ol’? wow.) if we haven’t noticed.. YOU ARE?.. Of COURSE I haven’t noticed because you can’t always tell someone is gay by looking at them, not everyone fits that ridiculous stereotype made by heterosexuals.
I hate that stupid stereotype of lesbians wearing plaid or dressing like boys. I feel there is no way to dress like a boy or a girl, you just wear what you want to wear and that’s YOU. Just like it is stupid to say pink is a girls colour and blue is a boys colour. THEY ARE JUST COLOURS PEOPLE! Clothes are just clothes!
Wow.. I had to rant a little.
Okay, now I’m kind of getting annoyed. Another ‘CHILD INTERUPTUS!’ Video cuts again, and surprise, the conversation starts somewhere else again. I’m just confused.. she’s now talking about democracy? Alright, HERE WE GO, four minutes in and we’re talking about the flaunting finally! I do agree with her though, about people asking us queers to stop flaunting. That’s hilarious! I would love to see a gay person ask a straight person to stop flaunting their straightness. It would make my day.
Another true point, this whole world is pretty much heterosexual. Everything from books to T.V. there is not many gay things on everyday television. (kinda disappointing to me) She said something about gays not taking over the world and how we want to be accepted and fit in, then she said it would not change the world. I believe it WILL change the world. There would be alot more love and peace, and young persons of the LGBTQ community will not be bashed and beaten and humiliated on a daily basis. The world will be a little better to live in.
I don’t really like how she closed the video either.. talking about who to vote for? I think perhaps she should have made a wee little script to follow along with in this video. Anyways, that’s all I’m going to say about this one.
How can I choose anyone other than Tegan and Sara? I mean, they are amazing musicians, they are twins AND they are gay. They were also my second concert of life too. I cried when they stepped on stage for real. Of course, they played my favourite song last, oh the anticipation! All of their song are amazing. Honestly, there isn’t ONE song I don’t like. My all time favourite song by Tegan and Sara is ‘Living Room’ which is on their album ‘If It Was You’.
They currently have six albums out. From lastest to first it goes ‘Sainthood’, ‘The Con’, ‘So Jealous’, ‘If It Was You’, ‘The Business Of Art’ and ‘Under Feet Like Ours’. Their first album ‘Under Feet Like Ours’, leans more towards the garage rock style, while ‘Sainthood’ is electro-pop rock. With all of the albums in between, you can really hear the transition of style they took. Even there personal styles changed as well, but that could easily be them growing up. Both of them look alot more professional. Personally, I enjoy seeing the change they have made.. makes myself more comfortable about changing.
And here is the URL of their official website, which by the way, is very well done. The feel of the site relates to their personal brand well. http://teganandsara.com/
Another extremely amazing reason I adore this duo is their remixes with DJ Teisto! ‘Feel It In My Bones’ and ‘Back In Your Head’ are truly amazing and exhilarating, I seriously cannot get enough of those two songs. I’m a HUGE fan of Trance music, so these song blow my mind.
Last but NOT least, I adore them because they are gay. I like that they are an extremely positive role models for all the LGBT community. Both of them are very open about their sexuality and have written songs about being gay. I wish that every queer folk out there could be as open and cool about it as they are. It is really inspiring when people can rise from the torment and bullying into the spot light to show the world what they have gone through, and to help others who are currently struggling with what they have struggled with.
If I could see any rock band in concert again, I would see Tegan and Sara again. Only this time, hopefully I will be able to meet them. A coffee would be nice. 🙂
I am inspired by music, it takes me to another place so far away.
As a child I shut out most of my world using music, it was the only way I could
deal cope. I would listen to angry music like Eminem and spit the lyrics to release some of my buried pain. In the school hallways I stuck to myself, and my headphones. You could always find me sitting against a corridor wall staring into a abyss. My friends wanted me to join them for lunch.. I would follow but I was never there.
To this day, it is hard to find me without my MP3 player on, head banging or singing away. The beats bring me emotions I never thought I could feel. So loud, all I can feel is desire and passion in my heart, it is almost unbearable. When I feel this, it is like a form of self torture.. I can’t figure out how to release the intensity of what I feel, yet I want it to continue. Dancing and singing helps release the feeling a little but it is not good enough, I need to find out where that passion and desire is directed. Sometimes (even in the public eye) I can’t help but laugh and start rave dancing or singing out loud, out of frustration. I need to feel the strength of my words carry into the wind.. One day, someone will hear my voice and find me.
Music made me open up, it tore down the thick diamond walls that 5 years of counseling couldn’t. No longer am I afraid to say what is on my mind or how I feel. Nothing will bring me down. Nothing can make me believe I am not good enough. When I can’t find the words to describe how I am feeling, I look to music and lyrics.
The intense passion made me want to come out of my dark and lonely shell. It pushed me to become someone I remember only dreaming about years ago. It make me want a voice. My OWN voice. Now you can’t get me to shut up, and all I want to do is express me. If it wasn’t for music, I would not be the complete person I am today. Coming from staring into an abyss, to singing my heart out on public transit, is a desired change. I can now freely express some of that forever building desire and passion through singing, dancing, art and words.
But still I do not know what that passion and desire is.. is it a passion to dance? Sing? Or simply just to express myself because I was not able to before.. Whatever it is, my frustration is building and containment for that feeling as well, will be difficult to achieve.
I am 20 years old and still discovering parts of me.